"the driver opens the side door of the van and retrieves your suitcase from the rear. you tip him in u.s. dollars because it’s all you have. you took out $300 at miami international because you’ve learned from your travels to countries like cuba and argentina how valuable it can be to have u.s. cash. you tip the driver with a twenty-dollar bill. later, you will wonder if this was your initial mistake."

"calmly, calmly. you were quite calm three nights ago when you told her that it was intolerable, you could stand it no longer, you were being pushed into insanity, and the only way out was to kill either her or yourself or both. the words were violent enough, but you were quite calm. it didn’t faze her; nothing would, except this. what did she say? something about your being excited over nothing!"

"you ask: why is the malady of death fatal? she answers: because whoever has it doesn't know he's a carrier, of death. and also because he's like to die without any life to die to, and without even knowing that's what he's doing."

"your life was a hypothesis. those who die old are made of the past. thinking of them, one thinks of what they have done. thinking of you, one thinks of what you could have become. you were, and you will remain, made up of possibilities. your suicide was the most important thing you ever said, but you’ll never be able to enjoy the fruits of this labor."

"you are not the kind of guy who would be at a place like this at this time of the morning. but here you are, and you cannot say that the terrain is entirely unfamiliar, although the details are fuzzy. you are at a nightclub talking to a girl with a shaved head."

"you are about to begin reading italo calvino’s new novel, if on a winter’s night a traveler. relax. concentrate. dispel every other thought. let the world around you fade. best to close the door; the tv is always on in the next room. tell the others right away, “no, i don’t want to watch tv!” raise your voice—they won’t hear you otherwise—“i’m reading! i don’t want to be disturbed!” maybe they haven’t heard you, with all that racket; speak louder, yell: “i’m beginning to read italo calvino’s new novel!” or if you prefer, don’t say anything; just hope they’ll leave you alone."

"there's just something about asians that makes reality a little too real, overcomplicates the clarity, the duality, the clean elegance of black and white, the proven template and so the decision is made not in some overarching conspiracy to exclude asians but because it's just easier to keep it how we have it."

you are the sun and moon and stars are you.

we talk to blake butler, author of the four books covered in this module, about making readers feel yucky, capturing america in his writing, and all-you-can-eat buffets.

"there are more cages than possible locations, the thought you think trying to think the prior sentence as a thought reminds you. instead of trying to figure out what you could do with that idea, you slip the tip of the restraint’s nib under your tongue and close your slits and feel your skull begin to fill."

"it's as if whole dimensions of her person, passed through decades, even withered and undependable as they had been, stand now at risk by mere suggestion, under defeat. it isn't right, alice feels sure; this narrative is not at all like what had happened; in fact, it's a willful degradation of her truth, so it appears, designed to pull the world out from beneath her, all explanation held behind some curtain she can't see. who had set this up, and from whom did they gain access?"

"and yet we still can trace no claim, no sense within you what it is about you that might be furthered pressed down or altered to finally allow us to perform the necessary aspects of the aforementioned trajectory unto the benefit of all, without the at least by now irregular and yet no less irritating fomentation of socio-political grindage that does nothing else but slow the system to a fault, filling what could be gorgeous, restful hours with wailing sirens, gnashing of meat, not to mention such informal torture of our own kind as where we are now, you and i, here in what seems to be much like the middle of nowhere would have seemed to a wandering populace, herein suspended as on a page, a passage where we remain stranded, sentence by sentence, in constant fear of simply being highlighted and erased, chalked up as refuse to the process, a cursor that bears no answer, only ever blinks and blinks."

"the best thing about planning to kill everybody in america is you can begin with anybody in america."

publishers weekly has called him "an endlessly surprising, funny, and subversive writer."

"this is the nature of war, whose stake is at once the game and the authority and the justification. seen so, war is the truest form of divination. it is the testing of one’s will and the will of another within that larger will which because it binds them is therefore forced to select. war is the ultimate game because war is at last a forcing of the unity of existence. war is god."

"small reason was there to doubt, then, that ever since that almost fatal encounter, ahab had cherished a wild vindictiveness against the whale, all the more fell for that in his frantic morbidness he at last came to identify with him, not only all his bodily woes, but all his intellectual and spiritual exasperations. the white whale swam before him as the monomaniac incarnation of all those malicious agencies which some deep men feel eating in them, till they are left living on with half a heart and half a lung."

we once again prove we're the world's most patriotic podcast.

"i go for a walk around downtown and: steinbach, closed, kitchen etc., closed. of course, abernathy's, closed! and you know i want, i really want not to just click on amazon, but what can...? because like amazon's nowhere so they can be anywhere, and sure that's handy but what i want, what i'm missing is what -- here-ness, ok?, herity. damn, there isn't even a word for it, not a one that gets close, it must be important... but that's it, you know; the grace of the heart that comes from something being here, just, right, here. where you can maybe drag a finger across it. see it in a window reflection. not when i want it, not when i need it, but enduring, earth-solid, a part of—"

"the gods of the valleys are not the gods of the hills."

"the solitude of vermont was weighing on me; the community was mythological; in reality life was isolating, each household its own entity."

suck shit, sufjan stevens. (#4)

"the winter starts straight after all saints’ day. that’s the way here; the autumn takes away all her tools and toys, shakes off the leaves—they won’t be needed anymore—sweeps them under the field boundary, and strips the colors from the grass until it goes dull and gray. then everything becomes black against white: snow falls on the plowed fields."

we talk to stephen markley, author of the deluge, about prescience, cynicism vs. optimism, and mutual friends.

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"i said that’s not what my father taught me. my father said there were two things in this world that would never change: the mountains and the sea."